*Disclaimer: the words in these poems are my own thoughts and feelings.*

You lost someone you knew

I loss someone I wish I knew

We are not the same 

You looked out into the crowd and missed someone who could be there

I looked out into the crowd and missed someone who would never be there

We are not the same

You cried when they didn’t pick up when you needed them

I cried because I knew I’d never be able to call them

We are not the same

You screamed “I hate you mom”

I screamed “ I wish you were here mom”

We are not the same

You fought with them over boyfriends, girlfriends, curfews, clothing, and so much more

I fought with no one because no one was there

We are not same

You expected them to be there

I expected no one to show up 

We are not the same and won’t be the same

Our struggles different 

Our loses different

Our lives different

The pain unites us but the grief separate us

We are not the same and that’s okay