I wish……

That my mom didn’t die a painful death

That my mom lived to see her 28^th Birthday and mine

That my mom was a better mother

That my dad didn’t die before I could celebrate his 60^th

That my dad was a better dad

That rainy days didn’t make me cry because they used to bring me joy

I could still stand in the rain and laugh and play like before

I didn’t cry on happy moments because I notice who is not there

I was more carefree

That I didn’t have trauma

That no one ever called me strong again

That I could truly be myself without getting arrested or put in a mental facility

That I could get paid to try out different hobbies

That peace and pain weren’t ever used in the same sentence again

I wish I wish upon a star that all my trauma died in a car accident with the bits of me that were dark but instead I am left with all the dark fighting to steal my last bit of light

I’ll keep wishing though…..

*Thank you for reading my thoughts* *Disclaimer: this work is my own thoughts, opinions, and feelings.*